Abuse accused Marilyn Manson previously admitted to making threats of rape against a woman who rejected his advances – and arrived within minutes after trying to murder an ex-girlfriend.
The shock rocker, who was released by his record label this week due to numerous allegations of abuse, made surprising confessions about his behavior with women in his 1999 autobiography, “The Long Hard Road Out of Hell”.
He even admitted that he was close to carrying out the “perfect murder” of a former bandmate and lover named Nancy – getting scared moments before trying to burn her to death at his home in the early 1990s.
“This was the first time that I seriously considered murder. … She had to die, ”wrote the 52-year-old rocker, whose real name is Brian Warner.
“Although I didn’t think it was right to take a human life, I also didn’t feel right to deny myself the chance to cause someone’s death, especially someone whose existence meant so little to the world and to herself,” he wrote.
“At the time, taking someone’s life seemed like a necessary experience of growth and learning, like losing your virginity or having a child.”
After tying up a friend to help, Manson wrote about how they “followed her, examined her home and discovered her routine” before going to Nancy’s home in Fort Lauderdale with “kerosene, matches and rags”.
But when they approached, a homeless man started following them as they tried to sell drugs – and they were finally startled by a series of sirens going into an emergency nearby, Manson wrote.
“After that night, I became too paranoid to kill Nancy, too afraid to be caught and sent to prison,” he wrote. “I woke up to the fact that I had told many people about my hatred for her, and even the best plan … was not good enough to protect us from casual events, like overtaking police cars.
Elsewhere, Manson recalled how he and another friend harassed a “hot brunette” who both had a crush on, but “didn’t even recognize our humanity”.
“I stepped back in my usual way of getting a girl’s attention: malicious and ass-like behavior,” he wrote, saying they would make threatening calls “every day for almost a month.”
“In the beginning, the calls were harmless. But they quickly got worse, ”he wrote.
“’We are watching you’, we threatened her at the height of our lust masked by spite. ‘You better not leave work tonight, because we are going to rape you in the parking lot and then crush you under your own car,’ ”he wrote.
Manson was attacked on Monday when actress Evan Rachel Wood accused him of being the man who “horribly abused” her for years.
“I was brainwashed and manipulated to submit,” wrote the rocker’s ex-fiancee in an Instagram post – leading to numerous other charges against the singer.
Manson insisted that the charges were “horrible distortions of reality”.
“My intimate relationships have always been consensual with like-minded partners. Regardless of how – and why – others are now choosing to distort the past, that’s the truth, ”he wrote on Instagram.