The first half of Demi Lovato’s new documentary series, “Dancing With the Devil”, was released on YouTube, featuring the singer talking openly about why she didn’t think she would overdose in 2018, despite mixing various types of drugs.
The four-part series, which details Lovato’s journey before and after her near-fatal 2018 overdose, was long-awaited and comes ahead of the singer’s first album since 2017, “Dancing With the Devil … The Art of Starting Over “, scheduled to launch on April 2nd.
Over the course of two 20-minute episodes, Lovato explained how she “crossed a line that I never crossed in the world of addiction” and that when she initially relapsed after spending many years sober, she “just went to town”.
“I used drugs that I had never used before. I had never used meth before, I tried meth. I mixed it with molly, with coca, marijuana, alcohol, OxyContin. That alone should have killed me, ”she said in the first episode.
The 28-year-old said she started using heroin and crack for recreational purposes after trying them out when a drug dealer didn’t have her favorite combination of cocaine and Xanax. Her addiction to both drugs got so strong, she said, that she was a heavy user of both after the Tell Me You Love Me tour and that she even interrupted a game night to take the drugs in silence in a friend’s bathroom. .
On the night of his July 2018 overdose, Lovato was going out with friends and told them he would go to bed when they left. In fact, she called her dealer and said that she has now received what she claims to be “fentanyl”, calling them “replacement pills”
After the overdose, Lovato said, she woke up in the hospital “shocked” because she thought you could only overdose if you were injecting the drugs.
“I’m not saying that I didn’t use needles, but that night I wasn’t injecting, I was smoking. That’s another reason why I was so shocked when I woke up in the hospital, because I was, like, ‘No, I’m not injecting. I can’t overdose ‘, ”she said at one point, adding later that she learned:“ At the end of the day, if you do too much of anything, it will kill you ”.
Lovato said he knew he needed help at the time.
In the second episode, the “Anyone” singer opens up a little bit about being “taken advantage of” by the drug dealer who gave her the drugs she ended up taking an overdose just before the overdose.
“I don’t just overdose. I also took advantage … When they found me, I was naked, it was blue. I was literally left to die after he took advantage of me. And when I woke up in the hospital, they asked if I had had consensual sex. I had a flash of him on top of me. I saw that flash and said, ‘Yes’. In fact, it wasn’t until a month after the overdose that I realized, ‘Hey, you weren’t in any frame of mind to make a consensual decision.’ This type of trauma does not disappear overnight, ”she shared, going on to say:“ Many of my past traumas came to light that night ”.
The next two episodes of the docu series are scheduled to launch in the next two weeks.
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