Chrissy Teigen continues to mourn her recent second trimester pregnancy loss and said the lingering effects of the debilitating ordeal serve as a “frustrating” reminder of “what could have been”.
The cookbook author and former model wore a beige dress and shared a revealing post on social media on Wednesday, in which she reflected on her postpartum body and her “belly” that remains after the loss of her deceased son Jack, who Teigen shared with her husband John Legend.
“This is me and my body, just yesterday. Even though I am no longer pregnant, every look in the mirror reminds me of what could have been, ”wrote the TV presenter, 35, on Instagram. “And I have no idea why I still have that cock, honestly.”
Although the “Cravings” scribe admitted that seeing herself in that light is “frustrating”, she added that she is “proud of where all this journey has taken [her] body and mind in other ways. “
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“I love being pregnant so much, and I am sad that I will never be again,” pressed Teigen. “But I’m lucky to have two incredible little ones who are turning into bigger people more and more each day. Anyhoo. I love you, guys.”
Teigen announced the loss of the couple’s third child in October and immediately disconnected from social media while entering the coping process.
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Less than a month ago, Teigen revealed that she was in a “hole of depression and grief” after the loss of her pregnancy, but assured her friends and fans that it “will be fixed soon”.
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“I’m not tweeting a lot because I’m honestly in a pit of grief and depression, but don’t worry, as I have a lot of help around me to improve and I’ll be fixed soon,” she wrote in a tweet. “They’ll call when I’m better and ready for pickup and you can come by and get me ok? Thanks and I love you!”
Former model Chrissy Teigen says she will ‘never’ become pregnant again after the second trimester of pregnancy in October 2020. (Photo by Allen Berezovsky / Getty Images)
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Weeks later, Teigen wrote an essay on Medium detailing his experience. She thanked friends, family and fans as she, Legend and their two children – Luna, 4, and Miles, 2 – recovered from the ordeal.
“After a few nights in the hospital, my doctor told me exactly what I knew was coming – it was time to say goodbye,” said the star at the time of the loss. “He just wouldn’t survive it, and if it lasted longer, I wouldn’t survive either.”
Melissa Roberto, from Fox News, contributed to this report.