She remembered feeling “worthless” and turning to Adderall. “I had 14 stones [196 lbs.] and I just didn’t feel like a pop star, “she said.” So, I started taking a medicine called Adderall, which is like speed, to lose weight. And then I became addicted to this drug because I became invincible and I could work many hours and be all the different people that I was forced to be at the time. “
In 2014, Allen joined Miley Cyrus on his Bangerz tour, which was difficult for his mental health. “It was a highly sexualized tour and I had just spent the past three years pushing babies out,” she explained. “It couldn’t have been less what I felt. Also, I never supported anyone. So, I was kind of going back to that stage of being a pop star again, but not doing it on my terms anymore. I was supporting a girl who was much younger and more attractive than I felt and I started [many] ways.”
She then began to betray her then husband, Sam Cooper, with whom she shares her daughter Ethel, aged nine, and daughter Marnie, aged eight. “I remember being in Los Angeles and thinking like, ‘Nothing about this performance is working anymore. Maybe I should try heroin, ‘”she recalled. “I was in a scene … and I knew that when that thought came to me, it was time to confront my demons. That was about five years ago. And I started to recover.”
Although she “got clean” after going to a program, six months later she started drinking again. “I lost my marriage. I lost my home, I worked 10 years to buy it. My career started to sink. I lost all my friends. I was so resentful. So angry all the time. I really felt that the world owed me things,” she said. “This went on for another four years.”
Fortunately, Allen is sober again and is focusing on developing a healthy relationship with his children. “I’m in the process of breaking this cycle. I felt very guilty about neglecting my kids in those early years and having to go on tour and behave badly the way it was. I really have a great relationship with my kids now,” he explained. she. “I am there to pick them up at the school gates whenever I can. I will drop them off in the morning and prepare dinner, and they will come to me when they have problems, and that is gold for me.”
Her current husband, David Harbor, whom she married last year, also contributes to her new, happier lifestyle. “I am in a very happy and healthy relationship. He’s sober, he’s been sober for 20 years, ”she shared. “We are thinking about what we are going to do with the rest of our lives … I don’t have as much as I did then in terms of success and wealth, but I have success and health in my mind, which is more valuable, I think.”
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