Lily Allen regretted ‘neglecting’ her two daughters during her previous battle with drug use and financial problems.
Singer The Smile, 35, shares daughters Ethel, nine, and Marnie, eight, with her ex Sam Cooper, and in 2014, when the family faced financial problems, Lily was forced to go on tour with Miley Cyrus, supporting his Bangerz Tour.
While she was talking to DJ Fat Tony on her podcast The Recovery, Lily admitted that she was not in the right space to get away from her young daughters and, when she was, she started drastically abusing drugs and drinks.
After seeking help and now living a clean and sober lifestyle, Lily, who is married to Stranger Things actor David Harbor, was moved by their relationship, now that she is no longer addicted to drugs because she has labeled her “gold” union.
Her loves: Lily Allen regretted “neglecting” her two daughters in the past, but touched by their relationship now that she is clean and sober (Lily photographed with her husband David Harbor and daughters Ethel, age 9 and Marnie, age 8, in last summer )
Lily chronicles her low points frankly, with her memories of 2019 My Thoughts Exactly telling the shocking stories of her rock bottom, while her album No Shame goes into detail about her marital problems and addiction.
She had been in a relationship with Sam since 2009 and in October of the following year, her son William was born dead at six months.
Sam and Lily were married in 2011, before the 2018 separation, and Lily explained that while they were together, she left for the Bangerz tour because the money was starting to run out for the family – but she didn’t feel ready for herself. same.
The tour visited the Americas, Europe and Oceania in five stages. It was from February 14 to October 23, 2014, and Lily had already revealed that she would use female escorts and take too many drugs during the tour.
Pained: While she was talking to DJ Fat Tony on her podcast The Recovery, Lily admitted that she was not in the right space to get away from her young daughters and when she did, she started drastically abusing drinks and drugs (Lily in the photo at 2009)
Speaking of preparations to go out with Miley, she said, ‘I got married when I was 24 and had a baby, I had a baby who died 10 years ago this month …
‘And then I had two successful pregnancies and, about six months after my youngest son was born, we ran out of money and I had to get back on the road again. But I was 14 and I didn’t feel like a pop star …
“It really keeps me under control and I go to meetings regularly. I got to the point of accepting that I really can’t get involved in all of those things anymore. ‘
Sweet: The Smile, 35, singer, shares Ethel and Marnie with her ex Sam Cooper (photographed in Glastonbury in 2014)
On tour: after her weight rose to 14º, the 5 ′ 2 ″ star started taking a speed-like drug to lose weight before the tour; however, it put her in a downward spiral and left her debating how to take heroin to help her “act”
Lily also assessed the impact of her substance abuse on her daughters: ‘It’s really great and I think more than anything that I feel like I’m in the process of breaking this cycle …
‘I felt so guilty for neglecting my children in those early years of their lives and for having to go on tour …
– And how I was misbehaving. I really have a great relationship with my kids now. I’m there to pick them up at the school gates whenever I can and I take them in the morning and prepare dinner.
“They come to me when they have problems. This is gold for me. They’re confident little girls and I’m not in the mood to … Touch the wood, they won’t become addicted to drugs! As I did. They seem to be on the right track. ‘
Gosh, in 2018, she was criticized for using glamorous drugs after admitting she smelled a line of ketamine at the Glamor Woman Of The Year award in 2008 (photo)
She sang about feeling resentment for Sam in her song Apples, with the lyrics: ‘I felt I was only good at writing checks’, while mentioning her guilt over leaving her children in her painful song Three, also by No Shame.
Singing from her daughters ‘point of view, she sang:’ I’ve been out to make a lot of friends, you can’t play with us, because you’re always on tour. One day I hope you know them. Please, do not go. Stay here with me.’
Of her relationship with husband David Harbor, she said, ‘I am in a very happy relationship. A really healthy relationship …
‘He’s sober, he’s been sober for 20 years – we’re thinking about what we’re going to do with the rest of our lives …
‘I feel a sense of … I felt like I really had to prove that people were wrong in the past and that people had all these prejudices about who I was, while now I can wake up in the morning and interact with my kids and them feel loved and protected …
Speaking openly: About other people’s opinions about your life, Lily said: ‘And it wasn’t always like that, although people outside would say that you have a lot of money and are really successful at what you have to complain about’ (photo in 2008)
– And then I can go out and do my job. It doesn’t have to be number one. It is not a failure if it is not number one. I’m just lucky to be able to do that and I get a strange brand bag. The life is good.’
On other people’s opinions about her life, Lily said: ‘And it wasn’t always like that, although outside people would say that you have a lot of money and you are very successful, so you have to complain.
‘I had everything to complain about because I felt terrible. Now I don’t have as much as I did in terms of success and wealth, but I have success and health in my head, which I think is most valuable.
Happy and healthy: About her relationship with husband David Harbor, she said, ‘I am in a very happy relationship. A really healthy relationship ‘