Gwyneth Paltrow is telling the world how strange it is to be a celebrity.
“I’ve been in the public eye for so many years, the surreal part is having been famous, basically, all my adult life, so I don’t know what it means to be an adult without all the scrutiny and all the wonderful and terrible things that come with being a famous person, “Paltrow, 48, told Anna Faris in Monday’s episode of Anna Faris is not qualified podcast. “I think our culture idealizes fame so much, and in fact I think it is [a] terrible thing to be famous, if our purpose on the planet is for human development and to really become the truest and best version of ourselves. I think that fame is a big obstacle to that, and I had to work hard to separate fame from who I am. “
Paltrow hasn’t read anything about herself “for a long, long time” for exactly that reason. But she didn’t know she should be doing that when she started appearing regularly in films in the 90s.
“When I became famous, I was probably 22 and, you know, I was just starting out, and you have a publicist and every day the publicist – this is before the internet – would fax, you know, if you were on Us Magazine, which was a monthly magazine at that time, or they sent a fax, you know, ‘Oh, you’re in New York Times today, “Paltrow said.” And literally, six months after that, I said, ‘I have to stop this. This is not healthy. This has nothing to do with me. I’m getting, like, excited if someone writes something good. I get depressed if someone writes something bad. That’s not my business. ‘”
Since then, tycoon Goop has said he is focused on who he is as a person, realizing that he cannot allow outside opinions to affect his relationship with himself.
Paltrow, daughter of the late director Bruce Paltrow and actress Blythe Danner, appeared in his first theatrical film, Shout out, alongside John Travolta and Heather Graham, as a teenager in 1991. Seven years later, she won an Oscar for her performance in Passionate Shakespeare.
When Faris asked Paltrow what it was like for her, she described him as a stranger.
“I was making a movie in Vancouver. My dad was driving, and he was recovering from crazy cancer surgery at the time, and I’m really happy to be focusing on him,” said Paltrow, whose father died of oral cancer in 2002 “My whole family was there, my brother [director Jake Paltrow] and my mom, we were kind of all united as a family to get my dad to go through this movie, which was very difficult. And thank God I had to concentrate on that, because it was the most awkward and surreal moment. “
Although it was exciting, Paltrow felt insecure.
“You know, you’re also a little embarrassed about being nominated for an Oscar, and you have impostor syndrome and you’re like, ‘I can’t even believe this is happening. I’m not even that good. ‘And,’ Does everyone hate me? ‘ “Said Paltrow, who is married to TV writer Brad Falchuk.” It’s the most bizarre moment, but at the same time, in my case, I still haven’t won, so I was like, ‘Well, of course not. I will win, but this is kind of cool too. ‘”
After Paltrow won the award, which she acknowledged that people don’t care much outside of Los Angeles, it got even more awkward.
“When you have so much attention on yourself and so much energy, it’s very, very impressive,” she said. “I remember I was with my parents at their home in Santa Monica, and I kind of, like, hid for three weeks later. It was so intense and I felt so … lonely is the right word. It was really weird.”
Faris joked, “I felt that way when I started Scary Movie. I can relate to Gwyneth totally. “
Paltrow also talked about the times before she was an award-winning actress. She said that her father had told her and her brother that they were not entitled to his money, so they started working while they were still at school.
“And then he said, ‘You can enjoy this while you’re here, and I love you, and I’m going to share this with you as long as you live with me, but when it’s over, it’s done.’ Like, ‘I’m not going to give you a dime, I’m never going to help you,’ and he held on, “explained Paltrow. “So, you know, we had jobs after school. My brother worked at the corner delicatessen. I worked at a toy store. I worked at a ski store. I worked at summer jobs. I worked. He’s like , “If you want money, you have to work for the money.” I think what it did was really instill in me that work ethic, but also, at the same time, like, yes, I was growing up in a beautiful, you you know, semi-detached house in Manhattan. So it was a funny juxtaposition. It was a very valuable lesson for parents. “
She said he continued to follow his “no help” rule even after she left college to try to act.
“I mean, there were times when I thought, ‘But I don’t have the money for gas to get to this audition,'” she said. “And he said, ‘This is not my problem. I love you, but this is not my problem.'”
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