FKA Twigs on his relationship with Shia LaBeouf

“It is something in society that is a very big and very common problem,” she told Theroux while discussing the reason for going public, “but for some reason we haven’t talked about it.”

While detailing the “preparation, the push of [my] emotional and spiritual limits “that allegedly occurred during their relationship, Twigs said LaBeouf would not let her look other men in the eye while talking to them.

“Being kind to a waiter or being polite to someone, this can be seen as me flirting or wanting to have some kind of relationship with someone else, when I’m literally just asking for noodles. … I was told I knew what he was like. and if I loved him, I wouldn’t look men in the eye. That was my reality for a good four months. “

LaBeouf would also have demanded a “quota” of physical contact cases in his relationship: “His previous partner apparently met that number very well, so I was inadequate compared to his previous partner. And I had to receive the touches and the correct kisses, but I never … knew exactly what the number was. ”

If she missed the quota, she says that LaBeouf would “start an argument with me, scold me for hours, [and] makes me feel like the worst person ever. “

After an incident in which she said LaBoeuf was “basically strangling me” at a gas station, Twigs called a hotline for abused women: “Her reaction to me was so serious … Someone was taking it very seriously. serious and wants to take me to a safe place. It was a great wake-up call. That’s when I realized that I need a lot of help to get out of this. “

After the call, consulting a therapist helped Twigs get to the point where she was “able to leave and leave forever” – and while talking to Theroux, she also detailed the difficulties that partners face in trying to escape abusive relationships.

“[Leaving the relationship] I really felt impossible, “she said.” I felt so controlled and confused and I felt so dejected, below myself, that the fear of leaving and knowing that I had all this work to do to feel good again, was completely overwhelming. “

“People often ask the victim or survivor, ‘Why didn’t you leave?’ instead of asking the abuser, ‘Why do you hold someone hostage through abusive behavior?’ It is a fair question for you to ask me, but it attracts me a lot. It puts a lot on victims and survivors ”.

Twigs also opened up about the future implications that she could have on the alleged abusive relationship: “All I can do is think about myself when I’m 50 [and] I have children, I think about what I want to have represented “, she explained.

“This is completely unexpected. I never thought that something like this would happen to me. … When I’m older, if I have a daughter, I want to be able to say, ‘It happened to me. And I deal with it. It’s a great thing. to heal publicly and have to do it in front of everyone, but I can do it. I am a big girl and I can do it. “