Demi Lovato says using drugs ‘almost killed her’ while helping to ‘save’ her life when she was dealing with suicidal thoughts.
The 28-year-old pop star spoke about her complicated relationship with substance abuse during an appearance on the Diane Guerrero podcast Yes No, I’m not well, telling Orange Is The New Black actress that drugs served as a “mechanism” of destructive coping “for her.
‘The same way [drug use] it almost killed me, sometimes it saved my life, because there were times when I dealt with suicidal ideas’, explained the singer Sober, saying that it distracted her from her emotional distress.
“I believe I resorted to these coping mechanisms because I was really in so much pain that I didn’t want to die and didn’t know what else to do,” she continued, for E! News.
Tricky: Demi Lovato opened up about how she used drugs as a ‘coping mechanism’ for all the pain she was enduring before she sobered up. She admitted that addiction almost ‘killed’ her while helping to ‘save her life’ by distracting her from suicidal thoughts
But Demi woke up when she overdosed in 2018, a near-death experience that left the star with permanent brain damage.
Since then, she has developed new ways to deal with recovery, saying she now has “other tools and other resources” to help, noting that “sometimes I did the best I could”.
‘I know how to handle and how to handle it differently so that I don’t have to resort to these behaviors again,’ she continued.
The former Disney Channel star also told Diana why she is so open about her previous struggles, saying, ‘I would look at people in the media and compare myself – I wouldn’t feel good enough, I wouldn’t feel thin enough – and I would wonder what it was like were these people living lives that seemed so perfect, but even so I was in a lot of pain. ‘
Scary: Demi woke up when she overdosed in 2018, a near-death experience that left the star with permanent brain damage
Happy place: since then, she has developed new ways to deal with recovery, saying she now has “other tools and other resources” to help, noting “I did the best I could at times”
‘And when I came into the spotlight, I thought,’ Oh, it’s not perfect here, nobody has a perfect life, it just looks like that. ‘
Because of that, Demi said she is interested in demolishing the ‘Hollywood facade’.
“I have experimented with many identities over the years,” she said.
‘The sexy female pop star that I felt people wanted me to be or the poster boy for recovery. And now I am accepting the fact that my lack of commitment to any identity is not a lack of commitment. It is just an opening to continue to evolve. ‘
Demi will pour even more of her heart into her next docuseries Demi Lovato: Dancing With The Devil, which opens on March 23.
Façade: The former Disney Channel star has said he is stripping his soul so that others can see that no one in Hollywood is as ‘perfect’ as he looks from afar. She was seen at the Billboard Music Awards 20187 above
Open book: Demi will pour even more of her heart into her next docuseries Demi Lovato: Dancing With The Devil, which opens on March 23
In a trailer for the play, she admitted that she would “change nothing” about her difficult journey to sobriety.
‘Everything had to happen for me to learn the lessons I learned,’ said Lovato.
“It was a painful journey, and I look back and sometimes I feel sad when I think of the pain I had to endure to get over what I went through, but I don’t regret anything.”
“I am very proud of the person I am today,” she continued.
‘And I’m very proud that people see this in this documentary and I couldn’t be more grateful to have someone at my side.’
Pride: ‘I am so proud that people could see this in this documentary and I couldn’t be more grateful to have someone by my side’