excuse me Bachelor nation, Carly Waddell no longer sees rose ceremonies in her future.
In a new question and answer session on YouTube, Bachelor in Paradise The student – who split from Evan Bass in 2020 after three years of marriage – said she would be “embarrassed” to return to the franchise again.
“Many people are asking me if I would do another Bachelor show, “said Waddell, 35, who was originally a competitor in Chris Soules’ season of The bachelor, and appeared in two seasons Beep, where she met Bass.
“When I think about it, I start laughing,” added the mother of two. “I can’t even imagine going to Chris Harrison and saying, here I am again. I would be so ashamed.”
Waddell came to share that “one of the greatest things” she has learned is to try to avoid repeating the same patterns in her life. “See how it worked for me,” she said of her time on the show. “It hasn’t changed. So it would probably be a bad idea on my part.”
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Although Waddell has noticed that she is in a “better place” than when she announced her separation, she is not ready to start dating again.
“I can’t even think about it,” she said. “I was so excited to end this and thinking about doing it again … I’m terrified.”
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“I don’t even know when I would invite this into my life,” she continued, explaining that she has no intention of opening the door before her divorce is finalized. “For me, I’m still married until I say I’m not married. And maybe that’s to my detriment, I don’t know, but that’s how I feel.”
As to whether she could be with Bass again, Waddell replied simply, “It takes two to make this happen, so that’s all I’m going to say about it.”
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Waddell and Bass – who share two children, son Charles “Charlie” Wolf, 1, and daughter Isabella “Bella” Evelyn, 2 – announced their separation on December 23.
“We made the difficult decision to split up,” they said in a joint statement to PEOPLE. “We will always value our time together and continue to have the utmost respect for each other while focusing on what is best for our family’s future. We greatly appreciate everyone’s love and support and ask that you respect our family’s privacy, browse therefore. “