Billie Eilish talks about romance with rapper 7: AMP and its eventual breakup in a new documentary

Billie Eilish is giving her legion of fans a bare, raw view of her personal life and the creative process behind her successful debut album in the new documentary, The World A Little Blurry, which was released on Friday.

The doc has followed her since the last part of the recording of – When All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go? – for the 2020 Grammy, where he took home four trophies from six nominations at the young age of 18.

The 19-year-old, who largely kept her love life a secret, talks about her relationship with rapper 7: AMP (born Brandon Adams), 24, whom she calls ‘Q.’

At the beginning of the Apple TV + doc, she can be heard telling Q that she loves him over the phone, but when it comes to an end, Eilish breaks up with him.

As more things are revealed, Eilish can be seen having a hard time finding Q while she is on the road on tour, and again when she returns home to Los Angeles, where he also resides.

She would break up with him during a conversation before taking the stage for a show at Pier 17 in New York.

‘I just wasn’t happy. I didn’t want the same things he wanted and I don’t think that’s fair to him, ‘says the singer for Everything I Wanted.

‘I don’t think you should be in a super excited relationship with things that the other person couldn’t care less about.’

Trying to be honest with herself, Eilish elaborates on how she didn’t think the state of her romance was ‘fair’ to either of them.

‘There was no effort. I was literally like, “Dude, you don’t have enough love to love yourself, so you can’t love me, man. And you don’t. [laughs] You think you know. “‘

With some time to reflect on the end of the relationship, she admits that she still loves Q.

‘I haven’t forgotten him, I haven’t found anyone. I never stopped having love for him ‘, she explains.

‘I just spent time away from him for a while and was like, “Wow, I’m missing out a lot because I’m worried about you all the time and I don’t want what you want and you don’t want what I want.” I don’t want to fix it. I can’t fix it. I tried.’

There is a scene in the doc where Eilish forgets the lyrics to one of his songs during a Coachella show and calls Q, apparently asking for support. Before hanging up, she throws the phone to the floor in frustration, as reported by People.

Q would break his hand after hitting the wall, and Eilish reveals to a friend, ‘I’m trying to convince you to go to therapy. He’s so self-destructive.

In another scene, she reveals that Q gave her nothing on Valentine’s Day when asked how they celebrated her lover’s holiday.

Eilish quickly reached fame after her release song, Ocean Eyes, in 2015, when she was just 13 years old.

Four years later, when we all fall asleep, where are we going? debuted as number one on the Billboard 200 and became one of the best selling albums of 2019.